So a month ago I received some heart breaking news.
That kind of news that you never want to hear in your family. Obviously I got really sad. And I won’t turn this into a sad post, but I really want to inspire you instead.

I found a really thin line between allowing yourself to feel whatever you feel and let you sink into the feeling.
This is not really new into my awareness, but it was kinda new this time because of the closeness and intensity of the situation.

So I allowed myself to cry…like really really cry.
Almost all day long for a whole week. Until at some point I realized I couldn’t stay like that forever if I wanted to help the situation and my family.

So i took a plane and I stopped crying.
Not because I wasn’t feeling sad, but because I wanted to move forward and love, and help and inspire, because that is my nature, it has always been.

The same day I started crying, I stopped painting.
And to me art is related to everything in my life. But I couldn’t find the strength to get out of bed and grab a brush.

But I realized that in order to help those I love the most (to help everyone, actually) I need to be OK. I need to be 100% me and give 100% of me to service and care and love.
You need to care of yourself in order to completely give yourself to others, and is in service where I find peace and love. In that way one can add, help, give, hope, love…instead of add sadness or negativity.

This is a very basic unsolicited advice and I’m not really in the mood for a big blog post. But I didn’t want to miss the opportunity to share this realization.

At the end I did grab a brush, some watercolors and I painted this.
Which totally talks about this moment in my life.